I've been feeling really weird. It's my senior year of high school, I started this xanga thing since 8th grade summer.

I still havn't talked to Cindy in over a year and I have this really big thing for some other girl. I should get a really good friend to talk to. This girl is pretty and smart, the best thing a guy can get, but I don't know. I need someone to hug right now =(

This month went by rather quickly, on the 8th of july i left for Hawaii to go to Leadership acadamy. Most of the time, i tried to get to the top but was always being pushed down by other people who also wanted to be at the top. Somehow I ended up as honor cadet, even though i've been pc for only an hour. I got pretty famous from Toan's Little Bird cadence though ^^

So the day after I come back from Hawaii, everyone starts talking about Harry Potter, and why shouldn't they, it's a nice franchise and the movie and book were highly anticipated. So i watched the movie and got the book on cd for deathly hallows. right now im listning to it and got to disc 5 (out of 17 =.=) i REALLY dont wanna get spoiled but i already saved the nice videos on youtube about people who cry because someone screams out the ending at a book store (HEHEHEHE) Gimme a day or two and i'll be done, but for now i need to find out what i can do to pass the time. (obviously no vids or movies because then i can't hear)

Well summers started and I got a job at timberland for 9bucks an hour. Its been a great 3days and I got my wizdom teeth pulled out. (OO) fat cheeks hehe. Crazy ass thing happened to me just now. I had a dream that the girl i let borrow my bookie thing got a 750 on her math thingy and it came true! holy crap lol. i got a 720 on my physics one.

Final Fantasy 12 and RO have been taking up my vidgame time, but RO is much more enjoyable when i can watch vids all the time. YouTube hasn't had any good vids lately (except for occasional WongFu vids). But i've been watching SouthPark for the past week. Man its good i found a website that shows ALL the episodes! So now im gonna be a South Park buff whoopie.

Hopefully im gonna have a better day tomorrow when i go back tomorrow to work and my cheek swelling goes down. Darn dude i can't wait to get a car ><

holy crap its been a month already? yesterday and tuesday were all very nice days, however today was a bad day. Theres nothing to do in school, i wake up in the morning to sit on my ass and think. thank goodness for no homework. I feel very strange in my heart, its almost disgusting. It feels like a crush but it also feels like love. I remember what i said to Cindy about not knowing love because of our youth but this feels weird, exciting. I mean this feeling has been kinda strange, i actually walk out of my way to cross paths with her XD. Just talking with her brightens up my day. I like this feeling, but i dont know if im going to ask her out because i think this exciting feeling only lasts in the beginning stages of a relationship then afterwards it gets routine and unexciting.

Watching Dead Poet Society made me wonder if writing poems and living by the motto Carpe Diem can really get you a girl if you dont care about the future. I probably would do it too if she didnt go to our school. I really hope i dont creep her out, that would be bad. oh well schools almost over anyways, time to get a fucking job.

Today marks the 1year anniversary of me and Cindy spliting up. Not really something to be proud of but i guess things happen. I haven't had a girlfriend in a whole year. Which is a first since i started having girlfriends all the way in 7th grade. So as a lil token of rememberance, I watched a marathon of youtube vids from derrick comedy. One of the best is called "Girls are not to be trusted" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rcx4_CszaDI

Funny as hell.

My day was ok, i realized now that i forgot to turn in my apps for leadership acadamy even though they were due today. I had an Ap calc test, which is the only Ap test i think i'll be able to get a 5 on...ever. im screwed for APUSh so i just worked on my eng project. anyways, watch the vid, its funny as hell, oh and jerry is hilarious.

-I like to skateboard!